Last after last,
but soon it will really be the last, I hope
&I can do the things I enjoy, I think
Maybe I just don't have the fate.. (:


I'm not sad that I didn't get in,
coz I already knew it, pretty obvious.
Its just sad to see and know that you will be drifting apart from the rest
different goals, different aims, different trainings.
It is pretty awkward when you're not involved but yet you're there,
you don't know where to look neither do you know whether you need to listen as well not
just like an extra, mixing together with the rest.
How everyone trains hard for this common goal, how everyone talks about it, how everyone counting the days left, how everyone feeling so excited about it, how everyone cheer after the race, how everyone wears their polo tees and jackets with pride and you can only stand at the side, feeling proud of them.
This feeling totally suck to the core.
Can't avoid the fact that things change over time, just like what it is happening now, and more will be coming in the future.
suck suck and still suckz

Don't try to say encouraging words, coz you're not in my shoeses