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I'm really affected by that random comment.
Its not about the comment, it is just me, trying to run away from the problem,
trying not to think about it, & naively trying to convince myself that if i don't think about it, everything will be alright.
I don't want to think about it, I don't dare to face it &I don't know how to solve it.
Although I know what I'm doing now is making it worse, but I can't turn back now.
I'm ruining my own life, I know, but I don't really have a choice
or rather should I say I only have that only choice, but I don't want it.
I tried to face it before, I cried every night, I blame god for being so unfair.
Dad &mom tried so many ways, but non helps
I gave up, wanting to face the music but mom insisted.
Now, nobody cares, maybe they don't know how much I've suffered emotionally.
Maybe 10years down the road, I will regret, just like how I regretted so much now
but there is no turning back now, I don't have the courage to change my whole life
Let me enjoy my life now &kill me in my dream 10years later.
I know I'm already very fortunate, but...
nothing is ever that perfect.
Don't judge a book by its cover, no matter how glamorous a person is, it won't be perfect
Its just a matter of time, just that the problem I'm facing come so much early
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